Don't get me wrong. College doesn't suck. I may have said it suck yesterday. But no, I take that back. Yesterday, after I got back from college, I can't stop but having this sinking feeling. I laughed with my cousin as we watch the television, I joked with my mother as she was nagging me to study my undang, I did various sort of fun things, and yet, I couldn't help but felt like something was pulling my heart down. So, I decided to sit down on my couch, and just think about it.

In the end, I got my answer. And I was immediately saddened by it.

College life was such a new life to me, that I find it so hard to adapt to.

Even until today, I still feel like, "Wow! I actually went through all of that today! And yesterday! And the day before!" In college, or at least, ICPU, things are so much more different from high school life. Just like I talked about it in the previous posts, there are various factors. But I guess, it's the feeling that you can never fit into the college society that makes it suck. You turn around and you see people with all sorts of friends, laughing and hugging and playing around. But you look at yourself and you only see one shadow. It's sad. Maybe it's just because it's been so long since I've had no friends beside me, that I forgot how is it that I should make new friends.

Those were partially my feelings yesterday. I had more, but ah well. But today, things were different. We were given a project during Advanced Functions lesson. So the teacher decided that we should choose our teammates using...err... 抽签 method. Ends up, who knew? Kai and I ended up in the same team again. But, we have a new friend into our social life. She was my second teammate, Evelyn. [NOT CHUA XIN YI. Lol.] She was a very nice girl, very outspoken, and she just amazes me. She walked into class for the first time today, and she hugged another girl in our class, like they were oooooold friends. But that girl looked like she was from some other country. And so I thought that maybe Evelyn was already here for the second semester, and that she knew that girl from her previous semester. But when I actually get to ask her, she actually told me that it was her first semester as well! WOW. And now I thought I'm normal. T_T

Anyways, knowing Evelyn was a good start, I thought. But still, my worst fear was still Bio lesson. When I got to Bio class, I waited for Veronica, which is my Tasmanian groupmate, to come so maybe I could try talking to her, since I never talked much to her yesterday, if compared to the first day. But ends up, when Ms. Fikar entered the classroom, she still wasn't here yet! I thought of sms-ing her and ask her about it cause maybe she had forgotten about class, since it was her first period of the day. In the end, I spent the whole lesson alone, and after that, I went over to English class. But before that, I'm gonna continue about Veronica.

After my classes are over, I went to the Web with Sherene to try out the internet there. It was great. And halfway through, Veronica sms-ed me. ;_; I'm so happy, cause I still wasn't sure whether or not I should sms her, cause something tells me she hates me and wants to change class cause she's sitting beside me. xD;; But when she sms-ed me and told me she was sick and asked me how much did Ms. Fikar taught today, I was just happy. :] For one, she knew someone else from our Bio class and was definitely much more closer to her and me. But, she actually asked me instead of her. Sorry, I know, I can be touched for petty stuffs. xD

After Bio class, I head over to English class. When we got in, Mr. Wise suddenly told us something weird. "Actually, even we teachers don't know something. It's like a glaring hole in my mind. I have always shared about this hole with the other teachers, and they agreed with me as well. Do you know the one thing all teachers never knew?" I was slightly surprised at that question. I really was curious about the answer, but I had no ideas. In my mind, I came up with all sorts of funny answers but I'm not that brave enough to voice out. So, in the end, Mr. Wise told us the answer. "We teachers will never know about...what you don't know." Everyone was surprised, as well as confused with the answer. But after a few seconds, we all understood. After that amusing little trivia, we were brought to the library by Mr. Wise for a short introduction about using the library website. Over there, most of my friends in English class walked with their friends. But, I'm relieved...that at least someone was alone, just like me. And not only that, she was in my group in English class too! Her name was Amanda, and yeah, we didn't really talked much, but we talked sufficiently enough to keep each other company and lose the awkward aura between us.

Basically, I'm content with my progressions so far. Though I've only met 5 friends for now, I know I will definitely meet more of them next week, as long as I am able to voice out. Actually, I know more than 5, but the others are not that close yet. Well, college life was definitely one hell of a life, but it will be a once in a lifetime chance of learning something very valuable in life. :] And I'm pretty sure that I've learnt at least some things by now. So, let's all hope that I'll be having much more interesting stuffs to write here next week.

Also, I wish Sotong Hng good luck as well! Since she was the one who knew how I felt the best!

Mood: Content.

Music: Kimi ni Todoke. [Kimi ni Todoke Opening Song]

Anime: Kimi ni Todoke.

Game: Ragnarok Battle Offline.

Don't get me wrong. College doesn't suck. I may have said it suck yesterday. But no, I take that back. Yesterday, after I got back from college, I can't stop but having this sinking feeling. I laughed with my cousin as we watch the television, I joked with my mother as she was nagging me to study my undang, I did various sort of fun things, and yet, I couldn't help but felt like something was pulling my heart down. So, I decided to sit down on my couch, and just think about it.

In the end, I got my answer. And I was immediately saddened by it.

College life was such a new life to me, that I find it so hard to adapt to.

Even until today, I still feel like, "Wow! I actually went through all of that today! And yesterday! And the day before!" In college, or at least, ICPU, things are so much more different from high school life. Just like I talked about it in the previous posts, there are various factors. But I guess, it's the feeling that you can never fit into the college society that makes it suck. You turn around and you see people with all sorts of friends, laughing and hugging and playing around. But you look at yourself and you only see one shadow. It's sad. Maybe it's just because it's been so long since I've had no friends beside me, that I forgot how is it that I should make new friends.

Those were partially my feelings yesterday. I had more, but ah well. But today, things were different. We were given a project during Advanced Functions lesson. So the teacher decided that we should choose our teammates using...err... 抽签 method. Ends up, who knew? Kai and I ended up in the same team again. But, we have a new friend into our social life. She was my second teammate, Evelyn. [NOT CHUA XIN YI. Lol.] She was a very nice girl, very outspoken, and she just amazes me. She walked into class for the first time today, and she hugged another girl in our class, like they were oooooold friends. But that girl looked like she was from some other country. And so I thought that maybe Evelyn was already here for the second semester, and that she knew that girl from her previous semester. But when I actually get to ask her, she actually told me that it was her first semester as well! WOW. And now I thought I'm normal. T_T

Anyways, knowing Evelyn was a good start, I thought. But still, my worst fear was still Bio lesson. When I got to Bio class, I waited for Veronica, which is my Tasmanian groupmate, to come so maybe I could try talking to her, since I never talked much to her yesterday, if compared to the first day. But ends up, when Ms. Fikar entered the classroom, she still wasn't here yet! I thought of sms-ing her and ask her about it cause maybe she had forgotten about class, since it was her first period of the day. In the end, I spent the whole lesson alone, and after that, I went over to English class. But before that, I'm gonna continue about Veronica.

After my classes are over, I went to the Web with Sherene to try out the internet there. It was great. And halfway through, Veronica sms-ed me. ;_; I'm so happy, cause I still wasn't sure whether or not I should sms her, cause something tells me she hates me and wants to change class cause she's sitting beside me. xD;; But when she sms-ed me and told me she was sick and asked me how much did Ms. Fikar taught today, I was just happy. :] For one, she knew someone else from our Bio class and was definitely much more closer to her and me. But, she actually asked me instead of her. Sorry, I know, I can be touched for petty stuffs. xD

After Bio class, I head over to English class. When we got in, Mr. Wise suddenly told us something weird. "Actually, even we teachers don't know something. It's like a glaring hole in my mind. I have always shared about this hole with the other teachers, and they agreed with me as well. Do you know the one thing all teachers never knew?" I was slightly surprised at that question. I really was curious about the answer, but I had no ideas. In my mind, I came up with all sorts of funny answers but I'm not that brave enough to voice out. So, in the end, Mr. Wise told us the answer. "We teachers will never know about...what you don't know." Everyone was surprised, as well as confused with the answer. But after a few seconds, we all understood. After that amusing little trivia, we were brought to the library by Mr. Wise for a short introduction about using the library website. Over there, most of my friends in English class walked with their friends. But, I'm relieved...that at least someone was alone, just like me. And not only that, she was in my group in English class too! Her name was Amanda, and yeah, we didn't really talked much, but we talked sufficiently enough to keep each other company and lose the awkward aura between us.

Basically, I'm content with my progressions so far. Though I've only met 5 friends for now, I know I will definitely meet more of them next week, as long as I am able to voice out. Actually, I know more than 5, but the others are not that close yet. Well, college life was definitely one hell of a life, but it will be a once in a lifetime chance of learning something very valuable in life. :] And I'm pretty sure that I've learnt at least some things by now. So, let's all hope that I'll be having much more interesting stuffs to write here next week.

Also, I wish Sotong Hng good luck as well! Since she was the one who knew how I felt the best!

Mood: Content.

Music: Kimi ni Todoke. [Kimi ni Todoke Opening Song]

Anime: Kimi ni Todoke.

Game: Ragnarok Battle Offline.