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Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @ 4:16 PM
Pre-SPM Rants

I AM OFFICIALLY BACK, BLOG FANATICS!!! Yes, finally, after 6 whole months... (Ignoring the previous post.)

Right. So before SPM began, I had this idea in mind. Since almost everyone has hibernated from their blogs months before SPM, I should do something different. =P Of course, posting in my blog everyday would make me wanna sit down and use the computer longer, and thus failing my exams. =P Therefore, I had come up with a brilliant plan...!

That is to write my blog posts in my computer, the 'offlined' computer.

This idea began at October 2 and ended at December 14th. So, yes, it is my very own SPM blog! I'm splitting my posts into 2 parts, cause I'm afraid it'd be too long. :3 Posting the second part later, cause I need to post some pictures along with them.

Enjoy!

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October 3rd (Saturday)

Gooooodddddd... Am lazy to studyyyyyy~ Oh and... Ordered Touhou stuffs from internet today~ =D I wonder, when will it reach? xD *hyper* But seriously... Was not going to remind myself about the price. T_T 2300yen for the items. Now, that's not that expensive... [a.k.a. RM95 for two books from internet isn't that bad] I was so thrilled, and my dad also said it's cheap! However...!!! When I clicked 'place my order' which will be the final decision, I just found out that shipping fee costs about 2500yen. T_T Even more costly than the items itself. GOD! But blah. Dad says it's normal. >>;; Should have flown to Japan again to get those books. So altogether, 4800yen. [RM180] DON'T even think of lecturing me about the importance of money if any of you readers is about to get naggy! xD I love Touhou more than I love myself. =3 And yes, back to studying.

Oh yes. For your information, Touhou's a super duper game I love. x3

October 4th (Sunday)

Wow. Compared to yesterday, I'm kinda down today. ^^;; Wonder why? I guess it's my results' fault. Right after trials are over, we already received 6 papers. Without comparing, I did quite okay, I guess. But after comparing with some of the other people, I began to feel sad and depressed. Though I didn't show it out, and I kept on repeating that I wasn't at all that sad to Sherene, I actually was sad. Well, for one, I studied. Lol. I did, this time, if compared to last year or those years before. I just didn't know why my results could turn out like that. I expected so much from myself, and in the end, I failed myself. I guess it's because I got outstanding results last year, and never did expect myself to fall so much this year. No, wait. I did not fall. It's the people around me who rose up. Without naming who, I guess most of you should already have in mind who they are. They did not get outstanding results last year, but they stood up high this year. So high... So high that I can no longer see them anymore...

*sigh* Is this because I gave myself too much pressure? I think not. It's just, I'm falling behind. I can't catch up anymore. It's like the race between the hareS and the tortoise. But this time, the hares no longer sleep. But the tortoise did. And because of that, no matter how long the hares take their naps, the tortoise can never catch up, no matter what.

But then again, people tell me that trial is just for us to get into college. The passport for us to get into it. The real one comes after this. However, those people who told me this, they can never understand my feelings. This is the FINAL exam in school. The last one in school. After this, it's SPM, which is not a school's exam, and then we done with high school. I wanted myself to at least do well in the final exam of high school. But it was disappointing as I did not. If only I had realised all of this before trials, I might have done better.

...well, having said so much, it all comes down to one thing:

I suck.

October 6th (Tuesday)

Lol. Just found out that I can no longer catch up with everybody else anymore. xD Isn't it suppose to be a sad thing? *shrugs* No questions asked, thanks. =] Just a small hint won't hurt though: Everyone's changing, 'cept me who wants to stay unchanged. Sad, but I'm still hyper. xD

Oh and. Good luck, PMR-ers for tomorrow!

October 8th (Thursday)

Note to self: Whatever happens, just don't dwell about the past and move on. I can accomplish more than I've set myself to. I know it. Oh and, just recalled that I'm going to have my two Touhou books shipped on Saturday. Yippee! xD

October 9th (Friday)

For Pete's sake! Been thinking it's already Saturday for the whole day! @.@ That's what happens when you're up for a week of holidays. School does do you good, sometimes. OH!!! Received an e-mail today too! Touhou books are being shipped today! xD Gonna get it by Monday. God! I can't wait! MONDAY! COME TO MEEEEE~

Personal reminder: Jing Nie's birthday tomorrow! Plus Inuyasha final season on Animax!

October 12th (Monday)

GOT MY TOUHOU BOOKS TODAY!

Plus, the brownies I made suck. D:

October 15th (Thursday)

Blah. Nothing happened. Seriously. But things WILL happen. :3 Sherene will be coming in 2 hours time, and so are my classmates in 12 hours time. xD

October 16th (Friday)

What a day! Lol. When I just woke up, I was still surprised by the fact that I actually agreed to let my classmates practise dancing in my house. xD;; And when they all had arrived, it was even more...breathtaking? xD To tell you the truth, my mum was seriously surprised. We didn't even cook enough spaghetti for everyone. T_T Sorry, Kai Chern, Xiu Hong and friends. xD But wow. Never thought that dancing was that tough. @.@ And enjoyable too! [Bond will definitely say "Ya lor hor?! Dancing is nice hor?!"] But really, it was fun today. And I am really looking forward to what you've planned for the other two teams, Kylie. x3 [aka "ah gua" team & hip hop team.] I really like the little hop by the Mario team. xD

I would like to take this chance as well, to thank Kylie. =] You've really put in a lot of effort in coming up with our choreography, and even in teaching us. Really, your efforts are well appreciated, as well as your constructive and motivating support. THANKS, Lili! x3 Even though we practised until the legs become black black and pain pain. Or is it just me? T_T

Oh ya, a final happy birthday to duckie and jying too! =3 And sorry, duckie, cause you didn't have the chance to play my PS2 also. Nevermind, I will invite you guys to come over again, for sure. That time, we play PS2 like siao. [Sherene?] Hng, you can come too, knowing that you really wanted to play it too. ^^;;

October 18th (Sunday)

I guess that I finally know why I enjoy being alone. You know, even the books said the same(horoscope books). I'm someone who can trust people easily. And I'm someone who can be happy for very trivial things. And I'm also someone who gets easily disappointed and annoyed at trivial things.

You know, it isn't easy to just forget it everytime it happens, because it didn't only happen once or twice. It has been repeated for god-knows-how-many-times. Okay, so you were told that your family was going to bring you out for lunch, so just bare with the absence of breakfast. Of course, no one would mind that. Neither do I. I waited. And guess what? It was already half past 3 and no one came back. Around 4.30, my mum called me downstairs and said that we're finally going out for god-whatever-meal-this-is. I waited until 5 and they are still sitting down lazily on the couch. It angers me not because we're not going out to eat. It angers me because you people just say things as you like and leave to do things as you like. Well, you know how it feels to wait from morning until evening and yet everyone still ignores you? Okay, if you're not bringing me out just yet, don't call! Just let me stay in my room until you guys seriously want to go out. Shit.

I guess sometimes it's right to say with hope comes disappointment. *sigh*

October 23rd (Friday)

Wow. Long time since I've updated. It's been nearly a month, this bloggie thingie. *sigh* Finally starting to get serious about studying for SPM, I guess. ^^;; As well as making a CCZG T-shirt. 8D Of course, the biggest problem now is still the price. I wonder how much it would cost for the 6 of us. I wouldn't mind personally, not because money means nothing, but that our memories would worth so much more than the price, so why mind? At least, that's what I'm thinking. *shrugs* But if people don't want the price, what can I do? ^^;; Funny thing, eh? From a silly little post to a officially formed gang. Haha, never been prouder when I created CCZG. Makes me feel like I've done something worth remembering and treasure. =] Also, seeing as everyone seems to enjoy being in the gang even though no one can tell (Soon Kit and Ah Oh), it really makes me feel like the gang really did bring us all together. That's why, I would really hope that this shirt would turn out well. Oh well, it all comes down to tomorrow, when I start designing. And of course, I finally did the SPM dream thingie. But... Isn't it too late cause by the time I have that thing up in my blog, SPM's already over? Oh well. Self amusement, I guess. :3

October 26th (Monday)

Finally designed the CCZG shirt. Currently finding a source where I can get the T-shirt mould. Lala... CCZG's shirt is gonna be out soon, so get prepared guys!

October 27th (Tuesday)

[Deleted. Too personal. Sheesh. Such an angst-y teenager.]

November 4th (Wednesday)

Wow. It's been a long time since I've last updated. Well, there's only one thing to say about today, and thats...REHEARSAL FOR THE GRADUATION CEREMONY rocks. 8D Of course, I do mean the performances only. It's fun, lol. Before it's our turn, we scared like hell. But when it's time for us to go out and dance, it just feels so nice and fun. xD Seriously looking forward to Graduation day. :3 And... I wonder if my mum will even let me stay back after Graduation day for a class activity. T_T I doubt she will. Sometimes, I would imagine my classmates calling up my mum all of a sudden to tell her that I should attend the class activity. xD But yeah, it's only imagination.

Oh and, two more weeks to SPM!! FIGHT~! This blog is gonna reach its climax as well. xD

November 5th (Thursday)

Wow. The almost-last day of school. Nostalgic? Maybe a little. It just reminds me how fast time flies. One minute I was walking into the school gates of SMJK Kwang Hua on my first day when I was Form 1, and the next minute I'm about to have my Graduation Ceremony tomorrow. I don't think I'll cry, because I know we're still gonna meet. But people bet I will cry tomorrow, so we'll see in the end. xD All in all, had tons of fun taking photos today. Hope I won't forget to snap Su Meng's, Boon Shan's, Bee's and Bond's tomorrow.

November 6th (Friday)

Wow. Graduation ceremony was...fast. At least the latter part was. The former part was just, blargh. Nothing to do. Hng, Chua and I were just talking random nonsense, including bad-mouthing someone, impressed by the stuffs 5S1 made for their teachers, Hng and Chua posing at the camera which was not aiming at them, as well as applauding for people we know. Buuuut, after that, all the actions began.

Firstly, shocking news was heard when Wendy Siao called up Fiona and Eve (but not Mochi T_T) to let them know she's not comfortable and going back home. We were shocked for a minute, standing straight and looking at each other with opened jaws, not even moving an inch, not even breathing at all...! ...not really. Lol. But seriously, we were shocked. And disappointed? Even more disappointed when the school began to play the graduation song cause that's like the song that will pour tears on every graduate's eyes if it was played AFTER the REAL graduation. (But not including me, of course, and maybe Hng too) We were disappointed cause we can't see people's crying faces, as well as not being able to SS during the song with SS. (lol for the pun)

Then, it's off to preparation for the performances! Since we're the 4th team, we have little time to...
1. take voucher from Hian Ee
2. take free lunch in canteen
3. walk back to our classroom
4. find our bags
5. open the polystyrene box
6. take up the forks and spoon
7. take up the bee hoon
8. ...and the sausage
9. ...and the fish...thingie (or is it tofu?)
10. bring those stuffs into our mouth
11. chew on our food
12. swallow the food
13. take another bite
14. repeat steps from step 7 to step 13
15. change clothes
16. excrete in the toilet while we're changing
17. tidy previous uniform in plastic bag
18. tidy current performance clothes
19. find our performing hats and ties
20. ...which Hng and I ended up finding it in the classroom we ate at after running around the whole school
21. run away from class as Push approaches the classrooms and yells at every class
22. run to get ready under the dewan
23. greet the returning Wendy (who sacrificed her poor little stomach to dance with us!)
24. put our hands together and shout random victory calls
25. get nervous
26. say hello to passer-bys whom we know
27. say good luck to everyone in our class
28. look at the previous team of performers who just came down
29. be mesmerised by their...colourful outfits
30. walk up the stairs
31. wait for the song to start
32. ...and just pose before we start dancing
(...and the only person who had done all tiring 32 steps with me was Fiona Hng aka Sotong aka the girl who gets blown away by the wind. *applauds* And did I mention I share the noodles with her? Same forks. Lol.)

Wow. 32 steps. Sheesh. No wonder Hng says she didn't expect the day to be that busy. 8D But yeah, we didn't dance that great too. T_T We were dead nervous. Ends up most of us dance wrongly. >.<>

After that, we started to rest and watch the other performances. Yep, and that means... Yelling, from Yours Truly. =] Those interested in knowing how it feels like sitting in front of me and hearing me yell while they suffer, kindly contact Ms. Fiona Hng or Mdm. Joanne Duckie (Yin Hui aka Lor Ahk) for more information. ;D Also, kinda disappointed that Wendy had to leave again. But she went back home and sleep kao kao and join us again also lah.

When all the performances are over, my voice was slightly broken. And... The beautiful sights of crying faces... Lol. First person I see crying was Ky Lee, and guess who? Lol. First boy is Yee Hong. He was crying and hugging while talking to Hoong Inn and said, "Where's Khai Chuan? Where's *insert random name*? I wanna huuuuuuug them as I cry~" Okay, he didn't say the last sentence. But the sight was hilarious. And... I noticed that more boys cried than the girls. Chua was forcing her tears out, but failed miserably. Lol. Then there was more hugging, and hugging, and hugging, and photos, and hugging, and hugging, before we leave to have lunch in Klang Parade. Sher volunteered to give us a lift, of course, her mother driving. Speaking of this, this reminds me of a little conversation I had...

*while walking to the school gate*

Me: Sher is fetching us to KP (Klang Parade).

Hng: Har? She reach liao ar?

Me: She said she's reaching.

Hng: No, wait. Sherene fetch us ar?!

Me: Of course no lah. Her mother. Why? Lol. If she drive then you don't want lah.

Hng: *smiles innocently and turns back ahead*

Then, we had yet an interestingly short time in the car. Basically, it's just noise. There's nothing interesting. And a lot of weight too, as we can feel the injuries the Avanza had on its bumpers. And the injuries Fiona had on her butt.

Then, we left to change in the toilet in KP. God. I don't know how long it takes. Long story short, 5 minutes changing, 15 minutes commenting and talking nonsense, 5 minutes for photo snapping. IN THE TOILET. And it's a PUBLIC TOILET. Going on... Lunch was, blargh. I called the wrong thing. But I was okay, I guess. Since I wasn't really hungry anyways. (after sharing Hng's bee hoon xD) Then, very soon, my car came along with Duckie's. So we had to leave. But no, they wouldn't let us. We have to sing songs. Geez. But blah, managed to get away with a couple of lousy lyrics modification of I Love You by Barney and Ke Ren Lai.

The others stayed back for karaoke session, but not me, Duckie and Hng. Sad. Lol. I brought Duckie to her car (nice leh~) and I had to take a 5 minutes walk to my car which is at the other side. xD Touching thing is, when I got into the car, Duckie actually sms me and asked me if I'm in the car already. Wow, no wonder she's a mother to 120 little ducklings. T_T

Then, I slept, ate, studied, slept. The end.

Oh and, wanna mention this. During the night, I was smsing with Christopher Low about the RM50 Pn. Lim Sai Kee gave us. xD (Spelling Bee prize lah. Not ang pau.) Then he was sharing with me his experience that afternoon. They went to Bukit Tinggi Jusco. And they went to this restaurant which was empty at that time, so they practically have the whole place to themselves. The boss actually asked them to perform their performance for him to see. Remember their performance? It's the Sponge Bob Square Pants and the Girly Man indian song one. xD Actually, I really like their performance. I think it's my favorite. xP

And yes, this is all. And there goes our Kwang Hua life. Just. With. One. Random. Blog. Post. =D

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Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @ 4:16 PM * Pre-SPM Rants

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