Wednesday, August 13, 2008 @ 11:11 PM * The Other Face
Before you all start reading this new post with enthusiasm, I want to warn you all: I'll be cussing quite a lot in this post, most probably 'cause I'm in a horrible mood today and it has just got worse tonight. The 'f' word will most probably come out most of the time in this post, so forgive me.First of all, I currently am fostering a hatred for all male students in school. I regretted bringing Chiho to school, in the first place. Seeing as other boys try to take advantage of her by taking photos with her and asking for her MSN, telephone number, address. Well, back off, you f*cking people. If you think you only want to talk to her just because she looks good, well, don't. I will not bring her to school anymore even if you asked me to. Why? Because she is tired of being in school but she tries to smile just so she can please you all. She knows well that she is the representative of Japan. In front of the foreigners, she has to smile, just so you PEOPLE can leave a good image of Japan. But all I see is you people taking advantage of her. Whats even worse is that, you people even hunt down for MY phone number just so you can ask me about her. What the f*ck is that?! You guys stalking after her?! Well, you know what? Get the hell out of my sight!
Second, today, I'm just plain emo. I'm really tired because I have to attend to most of Chiho's needs, and endure MANY annoying moments with some other people, and that I am trying my best to get everything done in a perfect way. I was so tired in Chemistry tuition just now, despite my friend's efforts to try to entertain me. When I got back from Chemistry tuition, I was aware there will be a Physics tuition tonight as well. Trying with every little might of mine to restore my strength, it failed miserably when tuition began. I was so darn tired, and I just wanted to sleep. But, you know what? Someone just keeps on bugging me and I don't even want to name that person. Sorry, but I was damn annoyed just now. I tried to smile and speak as calm as I can, but I can't. I have my limits.
When I got back home, I saw Hng talking to me in a very anxious way. Apparently, she's confused. When she added me into the conversation, it was Ivy who was confusing her. So, I tried to play hero by telling Ivy to stop, since Hng's mood was unstable as well tonight. I was tired in truth, but I thought it was the least I can do for Hng. But in the end, it made my mood worse. So, I'll skip the tiny annoying bit and get to the last, which is the part that totally ruins my mood for the night. I told Ivy to ask her father about the schedule to Bukit Tinggi Camp tomorrow, and I'll be calling her again later, to confirm the details. And you know what? "shut up la plz."
Sorry, Ivy. I was really mad when I see that. For the whole night, I'm trying to endure my emo-ness. But that one little sentence made it all explode. I've seen so many annoying things today, but by far, this was the only thing that made me explode. Sorry, but I really have to type this out. I need something to express my damned feelings. Behind me, I hear my mum's and my maid's nagging to pack my damned stuff for camp tomorrow. I just want a quite time. So, shut up, all of you.
Just, shut up.
Mood: Isn't it obvious?
Music: [ Some music that cusses and curses. ]
Animes: As if I can watch without cussing.
Games: Well, fighting games for sure, to imagine myself beating a damned puppet until it breaks.